Did anyone ever watch the show Rescue Me with Denis Leary back in the day? I loved its snarky humor and tense story lines and therefore watched it religiously. Anyways, there is an episode in season one where the firehouse loses one of their men fighting a fire. A beautiful song plays when they are carrying the firefighter’s body out and at the time I had to know what song it was. I’m pretty sure Shazam didn’t exist back then, so I had to rewind and pause, listen to the lyrics, and type them into Google. The song is called “All I Can Do” by Tyrone Wells. He’s relatively unknown, but his voice is heavenly. I’ve had this song on my iPod or iPhone since 2004 and love it as much now as I did the first time I heard it. What resonates with me most are the lyrics.
Another day slips away
And I get this feeling that nothing has changed
But these years keep coming like waves
They wash over me day after day
I just watch them rolling by standing here beneath the sky
And I can’t hold the hands of time
They will move like they will move
But, I can hold your head in mine
Give my time and give my heart
It’s all that I can do
How much truth resonates with these words? Just the other day I couldn’t believe that it was already August. This year is moving so incredibly fast! Sometimes it leaves me feeling panicky, mostly because of the first two lines in the song…Another day, slips away, and I get this feeling, that nothing has changed…I don’t know if it is my job or the fact that I am closer to 30 than I am 20, but lately I have been so blatantly and crystal-clearly aware that you only get one precious, fragile life. We know when it begins, but none of us know when it will end. I don’t want days to just slip away. I want every day to matter. I get so bogged down in the mundane. The laundry is piling up, the house is a mess, I didn’t work out, I ate donuts, etc., etc. To be honest, there are a lot of days when I let these miniscule stressors suck the joy right out of my life. I know it is just a song, but whenever I hear it, I am reminded that I truly cannot hold the hands of time and I better put a damn smile on my face or I’ll miss the joy of life slipping away.
I know I haven’t written in awhile. Let’s just say that time got the better of me and life took over. Pretty dumb on my part because this is therapeutic to me. Writing down the ramblings of my twenty-seven year old brain. It helps to get it out and not spontaneously combust from feelings. So, without further ado, below I present to you the comings and goings, the wonderful and the shit-ay, and all the details in between of what has gone on in my life since I last wrote.
Playa Del Carmen, Two Year Anniversary Trip
Jimmy and I took a trip at the end of May to beautiful Mexico to celebrate our second wedding anniversary. We were at a friend’s wedding the year before, so we hadn’t really been able to celebrate properly. The resort was beautiful, the drinks were plentiful, my ridiculously pale skin got a 1/8th of a shade darker, and we met some really awesome friends from Oklahoma City. It was the perfect trip with perfect weather and we left feeling rested and restored.
Elliot, The Stupid, Gross, Lump Removal
In my last post, I told you all about the lump I discovered in my arm at work one night. We got back from Mexico and the next morning, bright and early, I went to the hospital to have it removed. The surgery went well and I went home to recoup. About five days after the surgery, I noticed that there was an even bigger lump above the incision and it was red and warm. My nurse brain immediately thought infection. I made an appointment with the surgeon and he put me on 48 hours of antibiotics and had me come back after that time to see if it was better. Well, it wasn’t. It was really sore and the redness was streaking up my arm. Hello! Infection! When I went back, the surgeon cut open the incision and released all of the fluid that had built up and told me to keep the arm wrapped since it was now an open wound. Three days later I ended up in the ED with a 102 fever and feeling like death. The ED debrided my arm (without pain meds, I might add-rude), and put me on a second, stronger antibiotic. I ended up having to do wet-to-dry dressings for close to a month and missed about 3 weeks of work, blah! The incision is finally healed up and closed with another scar to add to my collection. Next surgery I need, I’m bathing in Hibiclens before. All-in-all though, I am very #blessed as the pathology was clear of cancer. Just a benign tumor.
My 27th Birthday
Another year older. Mo’ money, Mo’ problems. Ha, just kidding. This birthday felt scary. Twenty-seven, I have decided, is a grown-up age. Time to rally the maturity troops! Time to wash my hair more often! Time to wear a bra around the house (maybe I’ll work on this one next year)! Time to not let the laundry pile so high I can’t see over it! Time to make a difference in this world! Time to work out consistently (no more of this 2 weeks on, 1 year off business)! Time to stop watching trashy reality TV like Bachelor in Paradise (OMG did you guys see this week? SO good)! Meh, we will see how this goes. I spent my birthday surrounded by my family and best friends, and that was perfect to me :).
Here Ye! Here Ye! The Birth of My Perfect Niece and Nephew is Being Announced!
June 25, 2015—I worked the night before and was both delusionally happy and exhausted when those tiny twins entered the world. They were a little early at 34 weeks, but man, they are perfect! We got some amaze-balls videos of Kasey high as a kite, just preaching her truth to the hospital. Lincoln Charles and Addison Grace headed to the NICU where they would spend the next almost two weeks of their little lives learning to eat and not throw it back up. Now they are home and I love them to the moon and back. Kasey and Eric are exhausted, but I am so proud of the parents they are. They are fun, funny, and vibrant. What is also great is that mom has been up here helping them out, so I get to see Kimmy Kat all the time now! I am like Dory from Finding Nemo with those babies: “I shall call them squishies and they shall be mine, and they shall be my squishies!” (Pluralized quote for twins, yo). I LOVE my squishies.
Gus Gus, My Baby Horse and His Health Problems :(
We all know Gus isn’t actually a horse, but he’s pretty darn big so the description fits. I’m going to keep this short and to the facts so I don’t get so depressed I feel like taking a nice stroll down Interstate 635 during rush-hour. We thought Gus had a torn ACL, took him to the surgeon to set a date for surgical repair, turns out he has a major spinal problem also, called “Wobblers Syndrome” that is degenerative and will eventually kill him. YAY!—inappropriate sarcasm. I know Gus is a dog, but I cannot even begin to convey my love for him. He’ll be four-years-old in November if he makes it ‘til then. AND, if I hear one more person say something like “Well, Great Danes don’t live that long” or “Don’t they have short life spans?” I am going to go frigging postal and Ronda Rousey your ass. Those are dick comments, ya dick.
Bro Bro is Moving to the Rockies!—Insert Happy and Sad Face
My big bro Caleb is leaving Austin after many, many years and heading to the…whatever Colorado’s slogan is... state. He’s been through a pretty rough time recently in which I will hold my breath, count to ten, and not spew my bitter, baby sister ass-kicking diatribes about. I will be a cool and collected lady. DON’T EFF WITH MY SIBLINGS. Ok, that is all. Anyways, Caleb took an awesome new job in Boulder and moves at the end of August. The pictures he sent us when he was up there interviewing are crazy beautiful, so I am insanely jealous. I mean Texas Forever and all, but damn, Dallas is ugly. I will miss him bunches, but am so proud of him for taking this next journey. Plus, now a sweet place to visit!
Baby Making Business
Did another round of Clomid, made an egg (Go! Egg Go!) Took a hormone shot to the arse to release said egg, now waiting to see if it took. That is all. Oh, and had hot flashes for about two weeks. Thanks PCOS, real cool.
That was a big update. More to come later…anyone else had anything interesting happen this summer? Let me know!
Until next time,