Last week I finished thirty days of the most intense discipline I never thought I could handle. I went thirty days without tasting the yummiest things on earth: no sugar, grains, dairy, beans, soy, corn, alcohol. And guess what? I did it! After my last post, the whole process slowly started to get a little easier. Don't get me wrong, there were horrible days of cravings and just simply being over it. But once you stick to a plan and it becomes a part of your life, you learn how to just deal with it. At least that is how it went for me. I learned a lot of valuable lessons during the Whole30. Both good and bad. They aren't lying when they say it will change your life... it changed mine for what I think is the better. Check it out!
Food can have a powerful hold on you.
Before doing Whole30, I never realized how much I used food as a comfort or as a filler for boredom. Whenever I was tired or had a long day at work, all I wanted was bad food. Something fried or doughy or greasy. I used food to comfort me in times of stress (not like I was sobbing while rolling on a bed of donuts people; more like "phew, long, crappy day. Don't want to cook...Whataburger it is!"). I used food to pass the time when I was bored at home on my day off. Now, I don't need that. I don't even crave fast food anymore. No really, I'm not lying. I know how it will make me feel and how it holds empty promises (ha!) of comfort. I kind of became obsessed with tea during the Whole30, and now at night I like to settle in with a hot cup and a good book. I have found different sources of "food comfort." Sounds corny, but it works for me.
Having explosive diarrhea is NOT a normal part of life (sorry not sorry).
For so many years I accepted my GI problems as a part of me. I planned accordingly. I always knew where a bathroom was any place I stepped in to. I let a body system control my life. It got to the point where I, sadly, didn't think much of it. Then when I did the Whole30 and my problems completely stopped, it was a shocking change. I couldn't believe it. I actually thought something was wrong because I felt backed up due to not going enough. Then I realized that was normal. How I was living was not normal. Super Bowl Sunday was the first time I put this to the test. I had been finished with the Whole30 for about four days, but had stayed on it due to intense fear (I realize I have an anxiety problem ;) ). I was so scared of slipping into my old habits and I wasn't sure where to start. The Whole30 book actually instructs you quite well on how to introduce foods back into your life, but I am stubborn and want to do things my way. So I ate a donut and kolache that morning. And while they were tasty, running to the bathroom twenty minutes later was not fun. Gluten, dear readers, is NOT my friend. I haven't had gluten since then. I will no longer let bathroom needs control my life.
I finally found a way to lose weight with PCOS.
Having PCOS makes it extremely difficult to lose weight. You can't just diet here and there, you have to do an entire lifestyle change (cue the Whole30). I have been struggling with this for years and was so afraid I would never find myself attractive again. While I am far from how I want to look and what I want to weigh, Whole30 gave me that first step. I lost 12.2lbs and with that came the urge to keep going. Finally seeing success on the scale and how my clothes fit gave me such a boost of confidence. Now I just need to add steady exercise. Blah. I still hate exercise, unfortunately that didn't change. The best gift I got from this experience (besides losing the constant sprints to the bathroom) was the proof that I can succeed.
Grabbing life by the cojones is the only way to go.
So where do we go from here? I think I have come up with a plan that suits me. I am staying Whole30 during the week and on the weekend I allow myself one cheat day or cheat meal (depending on what is going on). Yesterday was Jimmy and I's little Valentines date day. I didn't have any gluten, but I had dairy for lunch and dinner. We also went to a movie and I had a diet coke and some chocolate. Dairy doesn't send me running to the bathroom, but it did give me a headache and I get extremely stuffed up and congested. The body is a miraculous thing. And learning what sets off my inflammatory system has been really interesting! Did I feel horrendous all day? No. But I did feel kind of yucky and tired. I'm okay with that for my cheat day, but I don't want to go back to feeling that way all the time. For me, this is a good balance. I have also added alcohol back in socially. I'm sorry, it is just more fun to have girls night or date night with a glass of wine. So, I plan to stick with this crazy lifestyle. I honestly feel too good not to. It completely reset my taste buds and how I feel about food.
Also, speaking of grabbing life by the cojones... I finally found the confidence to do what I have been wanting to do for over a year now. I signed up for SMU's writing program and am currently taking my first class. I love it. Class doesn't feel like class. It feels exciting and I actually look forward to doing homework (nerd alert). These classes will help me become a better writer and will give me the tools to write a book which has always been a lifelong goal of mine. If I succeed, then WOW. If I don't then at least I tried, eh? But I am pretty frigging determined. I've added Kelly's Writing Corner to my blog pages at the top. I'll start posting short stories, assignments, etc to here in case anyone wants to see what I am up to on the fiction side of things. Let me know what you think!
So there it is. Thirty days down and the rest of my life to look forward to. Who else finished the Whole30? How did it change your life? Or did it not? Let me know!
Until next time,
P.S. Can't believe I am doing this but... haters not welcome.