Well, it’s the last day of October.
A day of adorable kid costumes and ghoulish decorations.
A happy day marked with sugar highs and epic crashes.
It’s also a day that I am particularly excited about. But probably for different reasons than others.
Most of October sucked. Hard.
Honestly, I don’t even know where October went. It’s lost in the muck of my brain somewhere. The days all clouded together into a confusing jumble of wtf just happened.
I cried. I was confused. I was scared. I was exhausted. I was angry. I was sad. I was yelled at. I was disrespected.
But, with all troubling days—with dads in the hospital, long car rides home to family, frustrated tears—comes laughter, watching two people you love get married, a new puppy.
Most people say that Spring is a rebirth. Itty bitty flowers peak their heads out from the frost. Ice and snow melts and we’re left with the beauty of green scenery and sprouting life.
For me, this month has been my re-set. My “re-growth” as you will. The sweltering heat of summer finally relented, and feeling that first chilly air seep into my lungs was the cleansing I needed.
I learned that health is fleeting and can change in an instant. I learned that my family is my safe zone. I learned you can laugh through fear. I learned that even when it seems futile, standing up for what is right is always right. I learned people are not always who you think they are. I learned that this year I took a huge leap of faith, and as stressful as that was, I don’t for a second regret it. I learned that my happiest place is getting lost in creating worlds. I learned that I am strong.
Much stronger than I realized or wanted to believe.
So yes, October was hard. At times, it was a real bitch. And I’m looking forward to November 1st for many, many reasons.
For a reset. For the chance to start fresh in a new month. To look forward to the absolute best time of the year. When we’re reminded that that being thankful means more than fried or baked turkey. That giving warms the soul way more than receiving (I’ll let you take that however you’d like…). That we made it through another year.
That we’re strong.
I hope everyone has a happy and safe Halloween. Eat all the candy you want, drink a glass of wine while you trick or treat with your kiddos. Breathe in the cool air and smile. Tomorrow is a new day to start fresh.
Oh, and GO ‘STROS!!!!
Until next time,
P.S. Still obsessed with the felt letter board I got from Felt Like Sharing via Amazon! Get yours here! Available in multiple colors too :)