Coming to the East coast of Canada in June can be hit or miss on the weather front.
I knew this detail when scheduling my little time away, but I didn’t have much choice this year. July is pretty busy for me, and August was a no-go.
We haven’t seen the sun much since being here. Not that it has rained every single minute, but cloud cover has been our best friend. And I remain wedged in that annoying little spot of “what do I do?” When I was a nurse, vacation was clear-cut. You received your much-coveted PTO, you planned a vacay, and you did whatever the heck you wanted to do. But now, on the daily, I’m plagued by that haunting voice: “writers write.” Meaning, if you’re a writer, you damn well better be writing every day.
I have not been.
And the guilt that comes along with that is stifling. When did we become a society that is unable to relax? When did I become a person who feels guilty for having a lazy day? And how do we quantify when we deserve a break? A vacation? No, really, I want to know. My adult years have showed me some interesting personality changes. Like perfectionism. And an inability to cut myself any slack.
I wrote and finished a book, I’m starting the arduous task of outlining my second one, but still I cannot rest. I’m floating in the murky waters of finding a literary agent. Patience, patience. Really, I should be celebrating my successes and letting myself breathe.
My mind is happier. I’m trying to get my body there. I’m proud of the words I typed out on the page. Do I desperately want it to get published? Of course. But it’s not going to stop me from keeping moving. From writing that next one. And in the meantime, I’m going to look out at that beautiful ocean and keep breathing.
Sorry for the slightly heavy post. Here are some things that have been keeping Mom and I busy during some of the rainy days! (Oh, and all pics are ones I’ve taken since being here)
-My parents rent out their cottage when we aren't using it. Find the rental information here. It's quaint, quiet, and has beautiful views. It's one of my most favorite places in the world! Located in St. Andrews, New Brunswick, Canada.
-The cottage has (slow) internet, but no cable, so we've enjoyed losing ourselves in old DVDs kept in the cabinet. Remember The Saint with (HOT) Val Kilmer? Also, if you haven't seen Volunteers with Tom Hanks and John Candy, you are missing out! It's about a spoiled rich playboy (Hanks) who escapes from leg-breaking bookies by taking his college roommates' place in the Peace Corps in Thailand. It's hilarious and a must see!
-Mom and I had a True Crime filled road trip up to Canada. We listened to a book on tape called The Stranger She Loved by Shanna Hogan. Here's the description via Amazon.
Martin MacNeill-a doctor, lawyer, and Mormon bishop-discovered his wife of thirty years dead in the bathtub of their home in Pleasant Grove, Utah, her face bearing the scars of a face-lift he'd persuaded her to have the week before. At first sight, the death of fifty-year-old Michele MacNeill, a formel model and mother of eight, appeared natural. But days after the funeral, when Dr. MacNeill moved his much-younger mistress into the family home, his children grew suspicious...
Dayum. This guy was insanely creepy in the deceptive facade he portrayed throughout the years. It's an excellent story about a murder, but also how a man came to live such a chilling and calculated lie. Check it out!
-Per the recommendation of my True Crime loving friend, Sam, we then checked out the podcast Casefile. Holy Shit. Each episode describes a real crime, its facts, and outcomes. Some cases require multiple episodes, but each one we listened to was informative and oh yeah, terrifying. I will admit we made the distinct mistake of listening to the multiple episodes about the East Area Rapist (a sick and twisted man that preyed on women in the Sacremento area in the 1970s-1980s). Turns out staying in a cottage cut off from anything but trees and the ocean has only increased the intensity of my insomnia. EEk. Still, highly recommended.
-You all know my love for our Great Dane Gus Gus. Check out this amazing (and sad) story about the rescue of 84 Great Danes from a New Hampshire puppy mill. Link here.
-It's wedding season! Hey Little Rebel breaks down the things you should never say to a bride here.
-I want to see this movie! Even if I know the tears will fall.
-I've never seen oatmeal made this way. Can't wait to try it! (Use GF oats to make the recipe GF!)
What are you all up to in June? Experienced anything fun?
Until next time,