Well, hey there, friends! Long time, no talk.
That’s my bad. These last few weeks have been a bit hectic and haywire. But, I thought I’d check in and give you all an update on life and hopes and ambitions.
I’ve been sitting at my computer all morning, writing and feeling just…content. Whoa. Don’t get me wrong, I still have my moments here and there where I’m bursting out of my skin and feeling all the anxiety and all the stress. But today, I am happy.
I’m making strides. I’m not focusing on the “what ifs” or the perceived failures. I’m trying with all my might to look forward.
What does forward look like for you? What are you wanting to accomplish that you keep putting off? What changes do you want to make in your life?
These questions are often terrifying. I mean, come on. We only have so many hours in the day and most of those hours are sucked up by all our responsibilities. Who the hell has time to dream?
I say: YOU do!
Little by little, step by step, start working towards what will bring you contentment.
Want to start a hobby? Look it up, find a time and place. Too nervous? I’ll go with you!
Want to lose weight? Ask me about Beachbody Fitness and how much I LOVE it! Also, join me on the keto wagon (Yes, I drank the Kool-Aid. I’m in it. I’m committed. I’ve read too many articles about how its helped women with PCOS, so I’m giving it a try.)
Want to make a big life change? Research, make a plan, journal, and don’t ignore that little voice inside you that’s telling you to fly.
Want to take a vacation? Save those pennies, realize you deserve time off and a break, set those flight alerts, and GO!
I’m with you in whatever you want to accomplish. Life is a never-ending ride toward self-improvement and peace. Yes, some days will slap you in the face. Some days will be a downright bitch. We can’t escape those. But we can put them to the side and focus forward.
What does forward look like for me? Check it out.
Well, the publishing world is a fickle mistress. She loves you and then ignores you for… months. And months. My precious little book is still out there, sitting in the inboxes of multiple publishing houses. And I’m here just a-waitin'! I’m not going to lie, the wait and silence sometimes get to me. Or it used to at the beginning. Boy, did I turn into a neurotic little nelly frantically checking my email every hour? Ugh, it was exhausting. And then I finally had a little chat with myself (that wasn’t too nice) and snapped out of my weirdness.
I’ll continue to wait to see what happens with The Way Back (the title of my first book). In the meantime, I’ve talked with my fabuloso agent team and they are behind me all the way. I’ve been working on book 2 (as of now untitled) and we hope to start editing and working on that one very soon. Who knows, maybe book 1 won’t be my ride into publishing. Maybe it will be book 2. But, I’m a writer. And I’m going to continue to write because I love it. And I truly believe people will love my stories.
It’s my greatest hope that in the near future I can update this blog with a post titled: “I’M GOING TO BE PUBLISHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
A New Adventure
It was around the time I was being a neurotic insane person that I realized I needed to get out of the house. Not that I didn’t leave the house, but, okay, I’ll be honest. There were times when many days in a row would pass that I didn’t leave the house. And I only talked to Gus Gus. Probably not all that healthy. Plus, I was starting to drive myself crazy.
I knew I could go and get just any old part-time job somewhere. Maybe at Starbucks or a bookstore. But let’s be honest, it’s hard going from a nursing salary to most likely minimum wage. So, I got to thinking. And researching. And really soul-searching what I wanted to do. I knew it had to be something where I would still have plenty of days and time to write. I also knew I wanted it to mean something.
I started looking into volunteer agencies that helped women and children who fell victim to sex trafficking. From there, an interest I’ve held for many years resurfaced. Forensic nursing. It was something I looked into yeaaaarrrsss ago, but at the time, didn’t find much besides getting my masters. Well, I didn’t want to do that, so I let it fall by the wayside. But then I stumbled upon information about becoming a SANE (Sexual Assault Nurse Examiner).
For the past few months, I’ve completed 80 hours of classroom training and just last week I started my first day at Parkland Hospital as part of their SANE program. I know this will not be an easy job. And I know some of you might think I’m nuts. But for many reasons, this is a cause very close to my heart. And I think I can truly help a lot of women.
Of course, I’m nervous. And excited. And the decision to return to nursing came with a myriad of ridiculous emotions. But, honestly, I have really enjoyed my first two weeks at Parkland. It seems like a great place to work, and I’m feeling very proud and happy to one day soon get my certification as a SANE.
If you’re interested in what a SANE does, check out more information here.
Health and Wellness
I’m still riding that Beachbody train. I’m kind of bummed I didn’t discover the program before now, but ‘tis life. Today I completed day 24 of the 80 Day Obsession challenge, and I feel so frigging great.
I’m not going to sit here and tell you that I love doing these workouts every day. Some mornings I truly dread it (especially cardio days. Man, I hate cardio). But, I can’t deny how good it feels to up my weights each week. To realize I am growing stronger. To feel good about myself.
I still have a long way to go, but for once in my life, I don’t feel like giving up. I feel like challenging myself and seeing just how much I can accomplish.
Jimmy and I have also decided it’s probably time to return to the fertility doctor for a chat. We realized we need to start moving in one direction or another. IUI/IVF or no kiddos. I turn THIRTY in 14 days (holy shit), and we at least want to make a plan. So, I’ll keep you updated on that journey. It’s one I step back into with hesitation and wariness. But hopefully it all turns out okay.
That’s about it on the updates.
I’ll ask again, what does forward look like for you? What do you want to accomplish today? This weekend? This summer? This year?
Let me know!
Until next time,
P.S. To take you into the weekend... this song is giving me LIFE right now. I can't help but turn it up and dance around. It's from Deadpool 2, which if you haven't seen, shame on you. Bye for now!