Holy crap you guys.
No really. I can’t even begin to put into words how overwhelmed (in a good way) I was by all of your well wishes and lovely comments and just blankets of love you bestowed on Jimmy and me after our pregnancy announcement. I had no idea how many people were following our journey, but I can say I appreciate (lame word for how I truly feel) every sentiment written.
Now let’s see…
I made it! At least I think I did. You all will have to let me know. I’m into my 13th week of pregnancy, so I’m in my second trimester, right? One app says I am, one app says I won’t be until the end of week 13. JUST LET ME IN THE CLUB, ok!?
I honestly find it somewhat amusing the amount of effort I went through to get pregnant, only to end up with said implanted baby, and the realization that I know absolutely nothing. No really. Ok, that’s probably dramatic. I know I’m growing life. I’m going to get bigger. I have doctor’s appointments. But other than that, a whole slew of things has come as really fun (ha!) surprises.
Like… no one tells you YOUR NIPPLES ARE GOING TO TURN INTO PEANUT M&Ms. And don’t even get me started on the areolas. (They go back to normal, right? RIGHT?)
Or, that there’s going to be a whole lot happening downstairs. Like a lot. Is drainage an okay word? Barf. Sorry. Orrrr… that you’re going to be so tired you feel like that one time in high school you had mono but you didn’t get it the fun way kissing boys you got it by being a dumb ass and sharing a water bottle.
I mean I’m not going to sugar coat it. I definitely haven’t been that glowing embodiment of mother earth giving breath to new life.
I’m like a plump, nauseous, vomiting, big boobied person who is seriously lacking on shaving her legs. BUT, I am damn happy I am pregnant. Like ridiculously happy. So happy I pace back and forth in the doctor’s exam room until she enters to do my scan. So happy I hold my breath and pray until I see that little flicker of a heartbeat. I do this every time. And I’m sure I’ll do it until she’s born and screaming and tucked up tight in my arms. And then I’ll hold my breath the rest of her life.
It’s been such a fun journey. It’s so hard not to buy every little thing I see. I’ve already tucked away a few bows and jammies. Each week I feel a bit calmer, and I allow myself to reach a bit further into planning. I envision nurseries and colors and the endless list of what she’ll need.
I keep waiting for the magical fairy dust of the second trimester to rain down over me. When does that happen? When do I turn into an energetic sex goddess??? Eh? When do I stop puking if I wait more than 3.5 minutes to fix myself breakfast once I get out of bed in the morning? But really, when is this sex bunny thing going to happen? I’ve heard good things about this. And we could probably use it considering our sex life has been very scientific the past few years.
“COME ON IT’S TIME. NOW. NOW. NOW.”
“Well, this isn’t very fun is it?”
I’ve stayed pretty good at being “active.” Meaning we walk the dog every night (HEY DON’T JUDGE, I’M DOING THE BEST I CAN!) But now that Hades has descended upon Texas, and I know Jimmy is already annoyed by my constant whining of chub rub and boob sweat, I need to find some cooler (temperature, not like “OMG I need a Pelaton because all the cool kids have one) activities to do. We’re not members of a gym because, if I’m honest, gym memberships in the Marks household end up being more like yearly donations.
Does anyone in the Dallas area know of good places to swim laps that aren’t part of a gym membership? That sounds heavenly. I gotta get this body moving. I spent the last two months funneling bread products into my gut, and I hate to admit it’s starting to show.
How did you all stay active during pregnancy? How did you pass the time between monthly appointments? I know. I know. I need to live life and stop being such a neurotic nelly.
As always, thanks for reading. I’ll keep you updated on the progress and I’m sure I’ll be asking a million more questions. (Cribs, carseats, strollers, AGH!)
Have a great weekend friends!!
Until next time,